sealed with a kiss

These are the last words of reasoning in my mind, before I let all the excuses fill up the empty spaces where you use to dwell.These are my last and final thoughts, of all the things I probably should have shared. Instead I prayed to muster enough courage to stand on these shaky legs of mine ,and tell you whats been laying heavy on this heart of mine.These are the silient whispers,yes.These are the many quiet moments,yes.These are the prolonged long looks,yes.These are the reasons why.Perhaps you will hear all that I have to say.Perhaps you will throw it all away.Perhaps your heart will hear that old familiar voice and make you turn back around,just for your eyes to see right through me, and there to be no one around.

Deep breath in as a result from this heavy breathing, wich is what follows after running for a long time. The pretending is over, and yes it was me who sent all of those love letters.I know its hard to believe considering I signed it anonymous,and sealed it with a kiss. The writting is on the wall, perticurley in my handwritting after all. A blind fool could see it. A blind man showed me how to love, saying you cant see love,you simply finger it with your heart.Dont look at me like that, you dont have to say anything'; Ill go. Or maybe just move to the side;you've been looking over my shoulder all this time.But know that when I leave away, and you finally get the full picture.Once you look and let go , you cant go back.God knows I will not flinch at the sound of my name, or come running back. As you spoke and told all of the reasons why not, I quietly crossed of my list one by one. Every reason to keep you here, and tucked the ring back into my pocket.

Release of a heavy sigh, on account of you just dont get it. Im willing to take the broken pieces and build something thats never been made before.I guess you couldnt hear that part, her memory was screaming in your ears.And when you speak its her voice that you let leak.I've done this before, deja vu', and the past is ratteling in my bones. Shouting "do you remember më" and "this is what you will be". MAkes no sense I know, but Im not an open book, I prefer to remain a mystery. This way you can not find a way to break me, or change me, just watch me.Strong as an Ox,Im only as strong as my smiles allow me to show. But that You'll never know..that you'll never know. The train leaves now, no waves goodbye, I hate goodbyes so I'll skip that part.And just depart on a Jet plane..I dont know when I'll be back again.

These are the last words of reasoning in my mind, before I let all the exuses fill up the empty spaces where you once dwelled.These are my last and final thoughts of all the things i should have shared, but its all becoming lost anyway, and theres not much left to say. These are the last words I might have forgottento enclose in the letters...the writting on the wall, sealed with a kiss, best of all

Let's try this again,because Im sick of pretending.This mask I've been wearing grows weary upon this empty soul of mine. I once hoped and prayed to see you, soar across the midnight sky, and proove to the world wishes do come true by far.Lets try this again, because Im sick of running.The souls of so many fleeing cowards lay heavy on my feet with every long stride of a step I take.What if this storm ends, and leaves us nothing behind...will you still be here?Or will you dissapear with all the rubel that travels aimlessly away with the wind?

SAy it once more, it is much worse than ever before. I wont deny the only truth that exists, simply to temporarily give you a bit of satisfaction. WAs it something I said, because I refuse to bite my tongue any longer. Still Im constantly discovering new teeth marks from previous attempts to remain sensitive to how you'd feel so you'd stay alittle longer. Pick up your face, its no longer aligned in place. ANd if you have trouble finding it, its probably amongst the pile of empty faces; you change yours everyday.Your perfect halo ,that once rested above your head. Now no where to be found,but its left a faint ring around your head.

SAy it once more, how right nows not the right time, truth is Ill never be good enough, and the truth is the truth is a paralyzing puncture too my lungs.Was it something I said, is it in constant replay inside your memory?I cant stand these bright lights, that you've constantly put me under.I dont belong here, the colors of my soul shine so much brighter.

If I were to pack up my bags and fly tonight, I promise to come for you...but only if its what you wish.It was so dark, and since when did your heart go missing? Maybe its next to my sanity, which seems to be so far from my reach.Im getting closer, and theres the silver lining.You 've run so far ahead of me , leaving me to fend for myslef. I need to get out of here, the colors of my soul shine much brighter.

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Lets try this again, because Im sick of pretending. This mask I've been wearing grows weary this empty soul of mine.

I once hoped and prayed to see you soar across the midnight sky, and proove wishes di cine true by far.Lets try this again, Im sick of running. I Refuse to bite my tongue any longer. Srill im constantly discovering new reeth marks from the previous attempts to remain sensetive to how you feel so that youd stay alittle longer

time

 Naked, numb,stupid,and your drunk.

And if cupid has a gun... then he's shooting.

Follow and let street lights guide you home, but move quickly,dawn peeks from behind the moon.Im anxious, you're restless, and this dangerous silience spills out the truth.Love's a fatal drug, and we drink from it until we fall.No cushion to break the fall,but the whole way down I can hear the sound of your voice echo off of  these four walls. I my hands beckon  you retreat 5 steps back; its all too much for me too come to terms with. Once again I find myself face to face with the truth,and I turn away yet again.

Why is it we seem to have so much trouble coming to terms with the truth? What will it take for us to realize the consequences we receive for our actions is all the proof you need? You can preach until you're blue in the face, but the truth is the truth will never erase..everything thats lead me to where I am now. Everyone sings about the sweet summer of '69. The very same Every one who cant seem to leave the past behind. I have come to be homesick for a place that I just might never be, I've become so homesick for such a face I may never know. Standing in front of a clock that laughs as it ticks away taking irraplacable moments with it in every second that goes back. Time won't let me go back. Time wont let me, never have I wanted to run so fast in my life. Steel back what was stolen from me, fix what was said between you and me but..Time wont let me go. Every new day paints a wrinkle on my cheek. Every day with you brought me smiles,sunshine, and kisses that make my knees week. Now as I stand before this face with hands, that promises me nothing ever last...if only time would let me go. There's always going to be dreams that stay among the planets that man will never reach, but darling this one quest I believe to be obtainable. I have become so homesick now for a place that I just may never be. I am so homesick for a face that I may never know;the truth is time wont let me go. Time wont let me go. Every picture that collects dust on my piano, all I wish is to return to the time when...time please let me gooo.

....Never really had my sweet summer of '69. There will always be those taunting memories  I will never be able to leave behind. If Only I could go back to that exact moment where, We could take back all those words we said...but time wont let me go.

As the sunrises you watch it from the reflection of my eyes.You look deeper to see emptiness yet HOPE, , with no fear and regrets but with a life of a soul that forgives but doesnt show. at times I am helpless and weak in the inside, but my face and smile will never show it.I am blind traveling down this old familiar road..senses sharper than ever can feel it from miles away..something is missing. Bitter cold wind eats away at my face, numbing my senses and freezing my tears; remaining drop like statues as a constant reminder of what once was, what could have been , and whats to come.Somethings coming.

Ask me once Ill tell you twice,but even when its repeated it somehow manages to become stealth and fade away, if not dissapear completly.Bye Bye remorse,although you've served me well.It seems it was only a matter of time before your true colors would show.I stood under red lights just to proove my love wasnt forged, we're at war, but it seems I'm loosing the battle within myself.A heart that cannot be bought,and yet a soul tagged with a price..so name your price?I like to look back and try to figure out how in the world did i get to be where i am now.Its an itch that ill never stop scratching, its a void that'll never be filled.Slipping, my nails dig into your flesh so i dont loose my grip, but honestly Im starting to believe that your giving up hope aswell. Whisper secrets, and i'll repeat your lies,fake a smile and compromise.

As the sun sets, you watch it in the refelction of my eyes, but never say goodbye it leads to the road of demise.She waits at the same door that was slammed in her face,questions and exuses quick to take his place. Slightly blinded traveling down an old familiar road.Hazey eyed, and yet senses sharp..I can feel the warmth drawing me in from that sweet humble abode.A heart that cannot be bought, and a soul tagged with a price.....they'll give you the world for a kiss and fifty cents for your soul.You portray me as a beautiful girl. but im not all what im rapped up to be. My insides is full of indecision ; Im discussed with this world and the people in it. My Heart is slowly creating a new world of its own... and for a girl like me who's been threw hell and back its a real mission for me to create that illusions of a better place,at a faster pace,before i loose my place, and become trapped in space. Hes cursed with a cold soul and shes blessed with the patience to thaw it out with loves warmth anyway. I love my life, still there's the pressure and pain So I make sure that I'm grounded and able to maintain.

tHRee wishes

If i told you, you had three wishes would you put them in your pocket? Maybe wish to touch the moon, or save it for a cloudy day. Sing endless melodies or find a bird that can sing them to you. Try to create a symphony, but the truth is none of it will ever cause you to forget me.

You can choose to ignore it, truth is you live to hear it. Still you, try to drown out the sound of it with the unsteady rhythm of your speeding heartbeat.Running at the speed of sound, still its all around.Surounding the air you fill your lungs with,causing you to exhale nothing but the sound of my voice.

Three wishes, will you choose to fly away from here? Or stay here beneath the stars, following the sound of my voice.Ive' found my wings ages ago, not that, that's something you dont already know. A silient kiss goodnight, is never enough to say goodbye. You made that pretty clear, when I came back just to find you still waiting here.

Three wishes, you can choose to fly away from here, or follow the sound of my voice. Chasing dreams and phantoms, you poor hopeless romantic. Im only with you when you dream, leaving you to only wonder what if. You can pray and wish for a night, but its as real as the devil on your shoulder.Who whispers the very same fears you hide in the back in your mind; "its too late.she's left you behind".The truth is, Ive found my wings ages ago, not too say i didnt tell you so. A silient kiss goodnight, is nrver enough to say goodbye. You made that pretty clear, when i came back to find tou still waiting here...mmmmm three wishes darling.

Goodnight and go

1. i had a paralyzing fear to love you. Not the hallow numbness of the body but the kind of fear that pierces the soul, sends waves through the brain, and trembles the kness.I was afraid to speak the words that were stuck in my throat, and my pride forced me to swallow my tongue and choke on the one confession i prolonged to tell you for quite some time.Yea i know juevenile. But i guess not worth your while huh?
2. I had a paralyzing fear to love you...back. Not the fear of so many eyes layed upon us , worrying what they would think.No.the kind of fear that hindered me to trust,to open up,to..love.sorry, but sorry doesnt seal it up with a bandaid and make every thing ok. What happens when its too late? What happens when i realize my own strength within to by pass the many stares and glares. To ignore the devil on my shoulder, to tu
   rn back and run after you, ...to tell you.What happens when i turn to find its too late.What happens then. When ive found that you've grown fond of another?How quickly you've replaced me. What am i to do? What else is there left to do, as i stand and watch you from afar move farther and farther away through the rain that leaves a shallow coat of a silhoette that outlines your shadow.My vision hazey now all i Oan do is whisper ..goodnight, and go!

ah twilight!

so i accidently came across this book when my librarian suggested i read it since i was looking for a good book. at first i wasnt interested..i saw hands and an apple and thought boringgg. But she insisted i read and tell her about it since the book was always checked out and she herself never got to read it herself. i did....and LOVe it! read all four sad there wont be a 5th but stephenie meyer has outdone herself the series is one of a kind and great lol ..and i kant wait until the movie comes out soon! ha wata nerd.

max payne movie

ok randum

i so wana see that movie with mark walgberg MAX PAYN

lUV em (; like one of my top fave actors.Many people are going back and forth debating whether it will live up to its name as the good as the game. Since the rating is only pG13 will it still be any good? i for one think it will be and will update on it when i see it. i think itll be fine tho if marks in it, if all else fails js look at him ,haha.

liAR

My cheeks are flushed with heat of anger, tears boiling, rising, and spilling over; liar! My vision blurred with a red tint, and i feel as if i am ready to explode, shooting out the scortching words built down deep inside; liar!! There are no deep breaths, only hallow gasps.liar, liar! And i must admit this side of me sort of helps me think more clearly.Beware, for it takes control and i loose the wheel, honestly I think I kinda like it. The smiled fades from your face and sneaks on mine. You reach out for a second chance, take one step in an advance. I retreate 2 steps back, without once rethinking the decision that was made. I stand in the shadows, as the florescent light reveal your true colors..o liar liar. Its a beautiful night, and the wind whispers a hint of mallicious behavior afoot. What a beautiful sight, you're with her, and i guess its true about you not being able to stay put. The memory of pomises and condolences, scribble out the writting on the wall on its own. The irony of me trusting and believing you; what must i do to get you to leave me alone? Liar, liar...how one can transpire.Liar ,Liar. You've never had her. When i say her i mean me, when i say me i mean her. You honestly thought you could optain both. The gift of one liners, amongst the shallowest of gullables.The gift of one liners?Surely , i should have foreseen the trouble.The honest truth is, well i guess you could say laying right infront of me. WHile you remain speechless, trying to figure out how to sugar coat the story of its not what it looks like.. liar liar.

long road home

Do you have a wish? Good.Hold onto it, and dont let any one take it from you. In this life time there are many who dream, and few who are williing to chase after those dreams. Maybe its because they fear that if they dream hard enough, it might not come true.Maybe its because they believe if you run far enough after them, you'll become lost in a cause that is quickly forgotten. Many dreams are planted in the sky, drift with the clouds, and are lost among the stars. Smiles remind us of the good times, tears seem to betray us and reveal our emotional vunarability. Dark clear skies, are reflected amongst the oceans beneath them; lonley sailors that lie beneath them are reminded. The long lost lovers that stand together look up, and are reminded.The hopeful dreamer still holding onto his sanity, is reminded. Its midnight all you lonley souls bystanders of a miracle flying across the midnight sky. A shooting star. So close your eyes, and make a wish.Do you have your wish? Good. Now hold onto it, and dont let anyone take it from you.In this life there are many who are afraid to dream, and few who dare to dream. Few who are strong enough to stick it out and hold onto that dream that is just one day going to happen.Dont let go!