In your eyes

I look into your eyes darling, and see all that was suppose to be. I will not ask you to do the same in mine, because honestly this confusion has clouded my vision,and my dreams aren't as coherent as they use to be.My heart has never changed, not since the moment my eyes have found yours. It still has an unsteady speeding rhythm when ever you come near,your voice whispers sweet loves songs as a soundtrack to my emotions.Gently you grab my hand, leading me out to the moonlit ocean,and soon love we're walking on water.Then bullets of doubt kill my dreams, midnight swallows me as I sink into the ocean.

I'll look into your eyes darling, and see all that I ever imagined life to be. I'll turn away when you try looking into mine, this flawed love of mine may never be enough to keep the stars in your eyes gleaming.Its so easy to fall in love with promises of sweet bliss. Those are just fairytales,this is just a dream, awake me with a reassuring kiss. Standing beneath the millions of blazing stars that fight to shine through this polluted air. I clipped my wings so that I wont flee and fly away this time, but I think I really just needed to hear that you needed me to stay. Theres no halo suspending over my head,and my skin is paper thin, but this heart can love harder than anything.Would you still take me despite my flaws? I swear every breath I take feeds on only good intentions.

& If you look into my eyes, past the tears, you'll see a heart thats shimmering gold.

Once you look into my eyes, I noticed you were amazed to see that old familiar smile of yours still there.

You look into my eyes, you've become lost upon these brown milkyways.

Deep inside my eyes, there is self doubt that my heart will only be able to hold yours for long.

There are so many beautiful faces in the world, and yet still here you are still, captivated by mine.

I swear I dont know why, Im just another stars lost amongst the hazy sky's pollution.

I look into your eyes darling, and see all that was suppose to be.I'll turn away when you try looking into mine, this flawed love of mine may never be enough to keep the stars in your eyes gleaming.I'll look into your eyes darling, and see all that I ever imagined life to be.I will not ask you to do the same in mine, because honestly this confusion has clouded my vision,and my dreams aren't as coherent as they use to be.Those are just fairytales,this is just a dream, awake me with a reassuring kiss.There are so many beautiful faces in the world, and yet still here you are still, captivated by mine.
I swear I dont know why, Im just another stars lost amongst the hazy sky's pollution.& If you look into my eyes, past the tears, you'll see a heart thats shimmering gold.Theres no halo suspending over my head,and my skin is paper thin, but this heart can love harder than anything.Would you still take me despite my flaws? I swear every breath I take feeds on only good intentions.Gently you grab my hand, leading me out to the moonlit ocean,and soon love we're walking on water.I look into your eyes darling, and see all that was suppose to be.Once you look into my eyes, I noticed you were amazed to see that old familiar smile of yours still there.I'll look into your eyes darling, and see you are all that I ever imagined life to be.

The poison that killed Romoe's poor Juliet

Oh darling, how are you feeling? You threw up all of the dirty words you ate. Biting your tongue to keep the truth back behind you, but it eludes with everydrop of sweat falling from your forhead. Blocking your ears,denying the truth, and sheilding your eyes from all the shhh..returning back around that hits the fan.Why dont you come back down;chasing wishes that are about as real as a fairytale. Keep your head out of the clouds, daydreams will on lead you on. Keep your feet on the ground.You hold your finger over your mouth, to reassure everyone, this is your best kept secret.I think this is the poison that killed Romeo's poor Juliet.

You're bluffing, and your hands shake with your finger on the trigger. Russian Roulette is the only thing that can ignite fear, and rattle your bones. You're lying! The proof is in bold letters, smeared across your sweaty forhead. My poker face is set in place as we sit under dim lights, trying to deciefer who will win this game. Texas hold em, because surely there wasnt anything I could do to make him stay. According to the script,nothing was suppose to end up this way. Keep your head out of the clouds, daydreams will only lead you onto dissapointment. Keep your feet on the ground, and maybe this time i can convince you why you belong here with me.I think this is the heart ach that killed Romeo's poor Juliet.

Wake up! Ill be the one beneath your window,holding rocks infront of your stupid glass house. You too hold a rock in your hands with a sinister smile; the walls around my heart are paper thin. It seems that we are at an ultimatium; lets wait and see who will cast the first stone. But I'll loosen my grip, and let the rock slip from my fingers. Exploding as it hits the ground, I guess one thing was true all along....I had my head in the clouds; daydreams have only led me on. I have to keep my feet steady on the ground, and stop chasing wishes that are only as real as fairytales. Romeos' long gone, and I think this is the poison that killed his dear Juliet.

Oh darling how are you feeling? I hear you've thrown up all of the dirty lies you've said. blocking your ears,denying the truth and sheilding your eyes from all shh..that bounced off the fan.You wear a sinister smile,holding a rock in your hands; the walls around my heart are paper thin. If I let you in now, the glued together fragments of this heart will shatter, and heartach will surely win. Here we sit face to face, raising my glass high to a toast, we drink and wait for the poison to set in. The honest truth is, if you can hear me....I mean it. The honest truth is, when you're not here i miss you. It sounds like the same old sad song, one of those hopeless romantic girls who just can't manage to move along. Well I've moved along quite nicely without you, and yet I still hold onto the memory of You. The day you left me here alone, just me and my shadow, My heart has jumped ot from the shelter of my ribs to chase after you. Did you feel it in the air at night, I knew something just wasn't right. I think shakespear was onto something with Juliet, such love and such regret. I kept my head in the clouds, daydreams have only led me to dissapointment. The harsh reality keeps my feet on the ground,and remindes me wishes are about as real as a fairytale. I think this is the poison that killed Romeo's poor Juliet.

Poor Juliet only chasing hopeless fairytales.

Where is Romeo? Havent you heard, he's out of town with some poor man's Juliet.

She kept her head in the clouds, pre occupied with daydreams that only led her to dissapointment. She couldnt keep her feet on the ground, believing in a love about as real as a fairytale. According to the script, nothing was suppose to end up this way.Here we sit face to face, raising my glass high to a toast, we drink and wait for the poison to set in. I think this is the poison that that killed Romeo's poor Juliet.

nvr say nvr

NEVER SAY NEVER
Why are these lights so bright? The stars overhead are on fire tonight. Hold onto your dear wishes darling, a shooting star is coming soon to soar across this polluted midnight sky. They always say to walk forward and to never look back, yet if you never take atleast one glimspe back at the past how can you ever progress into the future? A whisper constantly in your ear with the question " what if, or what could have been" lay on your shoulder , so if you never look back to remember just what path you took that lead you this far ahead, then whats the point? Never say never.

The wrinkles that dance along the sides of your mouth, only come out whenever you reveal that old sweet familiar smile. The electricity flowing from your fingers cause fireworks like the forth of july beneath my skin. I've lost myslef in those chocolaty milkways of eyes, sucking me in and never to be found again. The memory of it all lays heavy in this heart that beats more streinously now. A whispering wind gently tickles my ears, saying "turn around darling you can always go back again..its your life." I know I promised to never turn back around, but that was only until your sweet memory captivated and reminded me, of what once was. And I swear if I could tear down the sun I would, to make this night and moment last forever.Dont loose hope, have faith in me, one day soon I'll build the courage to turn and come running back. Never say never.

You have saved me, pulling me out of the wreckage and for that I am your hearts eternal guardian I'll come rescue you. If life where to become greedy and decide to steel forever away from us, I pray it finds mercy and saves one of us, preferably you. Promise not to frett, I promised to remain your guardian, look up and let that smile dance across your beautiful face, Ill be lighting up the midnight sky for you. And you can never say never, not after all that was said and done, I cant let it all slip through my fingers and fade into the night. I can never say never, not with your eyes reflecting in same stars colliding above me tonight. Im running back, I could never forget. Dont let me go. I've turned around dont fly away ,Dont let it all go!

...Why are these lights so bright? The stars are on fire overhead tonight. Hold onto your wishes darling, I'll be there soon to soar across this polluted midnight sky. I can see youe smile from miles away; cling to the moon so you can forever stay. I promised one day I'd turn around and come running back, my heart missed the one I'd left behind waiting for me in the past; I've missed your skin.Darling you can never say never, not with all that was said and done, how could i ever let it slip thru my fingers.... The wrinkles that dance along the sides of your mouth, only come out when you reveal that old sweet familiar smile. The electricity flowing from your finger tips,cause fireworks like the fourth of july beneath my skin. The memory of it all lays heavy on this heart of mine,wich beats streinuously.A whispering wind gently tickles my ears, saying " turn back darling you can always go back again...its your life." Never say never.

Have faith in me, because everyone seems to be a critic in this life time, and they all choose not to believe.So I'll cling to what I know, and never let it go, I should have known things arent ever what they seem...



Lend me your ears and in time I'll reveal pieces of my soul, but it will only be for a moment. I look back at that old familiar smile and cant seem to return it, you're eyes once filled with gleamer slowly fade to dust as they look my way, and theres nothing I can say to hold your hearts attention.Why do you dance around the truth, surely the signs that are all around where enough proof , to reveal what was meant to be, meanwhile Im still wishing of what Only my mind can picture at the moment.What do you say in response to the silience that has grown on these four walls, and overstayed its welcome..what do I say? Tears and years create these rivers flowing deep inside,igniting my bones.I could never seem to let it all go until now. All I need is just alittle faith,empty this space of self doubt and replace it with those trust filled eyes you optained for me once upon a time ago.Have faith in me, Id do just about anything to see their faces the day I stand with my sinister eyes,and proove those kniving whispers to be make-believe.Have faith in me. DOnt become just another pair of red eyes in the crowd, out to drink the beauty of my youth and drain life from me. So Ill cling to what I know, and never let go, and should have known things arent always what they seem.

I triedpainting a picture of everything I ever longed to say to you,what a waste of time, because you must of read my mind when you grabbed me by the hand. You spoke of good times,mentioned the bad times , and in the end we went our seperate ways; this isnt what i pictured at all..but have faith. As you take your leave and travel miles and miles away look at my silohette in the clouds,smile and have faith in me. ......have faith in me...because you were the only one who looked to the sky that cradeled shooting stars, saying I must believe. You go and always cling to what you know and never let go..you should know things arent always what they seem. I'll remain clinging to what I know, and never let the thought of you go; shouldve known, things are never what they seem.

Have faith in me...

sailing into Good-bye

So they told me if I close my eyes and dream hard enough, I could touch the sky. You told me If I reach my hand out and dont look down and just look into your eyes,I could walk on the moon. But when I opened my eyes I was left with a temporary aroma only smelling of your sweet love, from the last hug good-bye. And when I opened my eyes, I was only left with the sight of you walking away into the shadows of no return. And when I opened my eyes, reality was there waiting to greet me with a paralyzing chill that crept down the backbone of my soul.

So what is meant to be will find its way into its propper place.You spoke with your intentions, looking over your shoulder, and gesturing with your posture that the empty place beside me will never optain you to fill it. This sweet dream of a memory you leave me with, taunts my constant daydreams and daily visits my dreams.But when I open my eyes, my face is crinkled with wrinkles just above the eyes, revealing my dissapointment when I find you are already gone. And when I open my eyes, warm streams fill my eyes to the brim and stand at the cliff of my bottom eye, daring to spill over and give me away.

Farewell, although you have not left me with a closure.You told me it was all for the best,as you sail away and have taken all hope with you. Handsome notes came falling out of your mouth. Promises you use to fill this void in my left in a dented heart;how did that come about? Fast asleep, because thats when you're the closest to me,and you speak my favorite words that I know are too good to exist in reality.My eyes realease these luke warm drops of betrayl,and you mock me with a sinister smile as you shatter the most vital muscle ever so frail. Where is your sense of sensitivity? Back here with me where you left it, watching your departure, awaiting your return.

You say that you only meant well, when it cost you dear.
You say, that its all for the best, because it is.
You say its what we both need, and yet only you decided this.
Handsome notes keep falling out your mouth,
promises used to fill this void in a dented heart;
how did that come about?

.....So they told me if I close my eyes and dream hard enough, I could touch the sky.
.....So they told me what is meant to be will find its way back into its propper place.
....You told me that if i reach my hand out anddont look down,just into your eyes, I could walk on the moon.
You spoke with your intentions,looking over your shoulder, and gesturing with your posture that the empty space you left beside me will never be filled by you.

Now as this ship quickly sails away, Im left speechless with a heavy heart filled with words left unsaid.
You've taken your leave, and dawn is just moments away. I dont expect you to return but Ill procede to dream anyway.Mm what did you say? That you only meant well? well of course you did.Mmm what did you say? That its only for the best, well of course it is...Speak no feeling, no of course I dont believe you. You dont care a bit. Handsome words keep falling out of your mouth, speak no feeling, and no of course I dont believe you...You dont care abit. The ship is still sailing, but you refuse to look back, Ive awoken a moment too late and have waken to find you sailing into good-bye.

sealed with a kiss

These are the last words of reasoning in my mind, before I let all the excuses fill up the empty spaces where you use to dwell.These are my last and final thoughts, of all the things I probably should have shared. Instead I prayed to muster enough courage to stand on these shaky legs of mine ,and tell you whats been laying heavy on this heart of mine.These are the silient whispers,yes.These are the many quiet moments,yes.These are the prolonged long looks,yes.These are the reasons why.Perhaps you will hear all that I have to say.Perhaps you will throw it all away.Perhaps your heart will hear that old familiar voice and make you turn back around,just for your eyes to see right through me, and there to be no one around.

Deep breath in as a result from this heavy breathing, wich is what follows after running for a long time. The pretending is over, and yes it was me who sent all of those love letters.I know its hard to believe considering I signed it anonymous,and sealed it with a kiss. The writting is on the wall, perticurley in my handwritting after all. A blind fool could see it. A blind man showed me how to love, saying you cant see love,you simply finger it with your heart.Dont look at me like that, you dont have to say anything'; Ill go. Or maybe just move to the side;you've been looking over my shoulder all this time.But know that when I leave away, and you finally get the full picture.Once you look and let go , you cant go back.God knows I will not flinch at the sound of my name, or come running back. As you spoke and told all of the reasons why not, I quietly crossed of my list one by one. Every reason to keep you here, and tucked the ring back into my pocket.

Release of a heavy sigh, on account of you just dont get it. Im willing to take the broken pieces and build something thats never been made before.I guess you couldnt hear that part, her memory was screaming in your ears.And when you speak its her voice that you let leak.I've done this before, deja vu', and the past is ratteling in my bones. Shouting "do you remember më" and "this is what you will be". MAkes no sense I know, but Im not an open book, I prefer to remain a mystery. This way you can not find a way to break me, or change me, just watch me.Strong as an Ox,Im only as strong as my smiles allow me to show. But that You'll never know..that you'll never know. The train leaves now, no waves goodbye, I hate goodbyes so I'll skip that part.And just depart on a Jet plane..I dont know when I'll be back again.

These are the last words of reasoning in my mind, before I let all the exuses fill up the empty spaces where you once dwelled.These are my last and final thoughts of all the things i should have shared, but its all becoming lost anyway, and theres not much left to say. These are the last words I might have forgottento enclose in the letters...the writting on the wall, sealed with a kiss, best of all

Let's try this again,because Im sick of pretending.This mask I've been wearing grows weary upon this empty soul of mine. I once hoped and prayed to see you, soar across the midnight sky, and proove to the world wishes do come true by far.Lets try this again, because Im sick of running.The souls of so many fleeing cowards lay heavy on my feet with every long stride of a step I take.What if this storm ends, and leaves us nothing behind...will you still be here?Or will you dissapear with all the rubel that travels aimlessly away with the wind?

SAy it once more, it is much worse than ever before. I wont deny the only truth that exists, simply to temporarily give you a bit of satisfaction. WAs it something I said, because I refuse to bite my tongue any longer. Still Im constantly discovering new teeth marks from previous attempts to remain sensitive to how you'd feel so you'd stay alittle longer. Pick up your face, its no longer aligned in place. ANd if you have trouble finding it, its probably amongst the pile of empty faces; you change yours everyday.Your perfect halo ,that once rested above your head. Now no where to be found,but its left a faint ring around your head.

SAy it once more, how right nows not the right time, truth is Ill never be good enough, and the truth is the truth is a paralyzing puncture too my lungs.Was it something I said, is it in constant replay inside your memory?I cant stand these bright lights, that you've constantly put me under.I dont belong here, the colors of my soul shine so much brighter.

If I were to pack up my bags and fly tonight, I promise to come for you...but only if its what you wish.It was so dark, and since when did your heart go missing? Maybe its next to my sanity, which seems to be so far from my reach.Im getting closer, and theres the silver lining.You 've run so far ahead of me , leaving me to fend for myslef. I need to get out of here, the colors of my soul shine much brighter.

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Lets try this again, because Im sick of pretending. This mask I've been wearing grows weary this empty soul of mine.

I once hoped and prayed to see you soar across the midnight sky, and proove wishes di cine true by far.Lets try this again, Im sick of running. I Refuse to bite my tongue any longer. Srill im constantly discovering new reeth marks from the previous attempts to remain sensetive to how you feel so that youd stay alittle longer