Goodnight and go

1. i had a paralyzing fear to love you. Not the hallow numbness of the body but the kind of fear that pierces the soul, sends waves through the brain, and trembles the kness.I was afraid to speak the words that were stuck in my throat, and my pride forced me to swallow my tongue and choke on the one confession i prolonged to tell you for quite some time.Yea i know juevenile. But i guess not worth your while huh?
2. I had a paralyzing fear to love you...back. Not the fear of so many eyes layed upon us , worrying what they would think.No.the kind of fear that hindered me to trust,to open up,to..love.sorry, but sorry doesnt seal it up with a bandaid and make every thing ok. What happens when its too late? What happens when i realize my own strength within to by pass the many stares and glares. To ignore the devil on my shoulder, to tu
   rn back and run after you, ...to tell you.What happens when i turn to find its too late.What happens then. When ive found that you've grown fond of another?How quickly you've replaced me. What am i to do? What else is there left to do, as i stand and watch you from afar move farther and farther away through the rain that leaves a shallow coat of a silhoette that outlines your shadow.My vision hazey now all i Oan do is whisper ..goodnight, and go!